Hello all you three folks out there that read my random drivel I call writing!
It's that time again where we all wrack our brains and trying our damndest to come up with some really great resolutions we are bound to forget about before you can say happy Easter. I am no exception to this today. I have been thinking about what I had hoped to accomplish in the last year and while I did take care of some business, I left much to be desired in the resolution category.
The sad part is I started off with a vengeance in 2008. I made a goal to run a road race and while I was doing so well running and preparing, it all fell short when life caught up to me and overtook my 'me-time.' I'm still shaking my fist over that one. But alas, a new year and a new chance to show my body who's boss. Hopefully I can actually stick to it this year for no other reason to be as healthy as I can possibly be.
Another goal I made for myself for the last 356 days was to do less for others and more for myself. Sadly, my tub was not filled with little opaque spheres of joy and my bare butt as often as I had planned. 'Butt' I am sure to do my damndest to remedy that this year. On the other hand, I did step down from a couple responsibilities that were more time consuming and less fulfilling than I had hoped. So kudos to me on that one. Right? Hey, throw me a bone here people, I'm trying. And yes, I am talking to YOU NICOLE! :) Too bad I replaced them with other, more enjoyable yet time consuming places to be. Whoops.
For 2009, I really have only one goal. Put me first. Now don't go thinking this is an excuse for it to be open season on everyone's feelings because it isn't. It is putting myself first and my happiness first and foremost. I spend a lot of time putting myself on the back burner for the sake of others. I have every intention of still loving and caring for those that love me back, but the ones that are just here to suck the life out of me little by little, day by day... well boy are they in for a surprise. I actually have had a good laugh about recent conversations I have had with several people I love dearly. One such conversation included the statement "you know how you can be, Anna" and "you're just going to do whatever you want anyway" and my favorite insinuated I just blast off my mouth with no regard to others for the sake of blasting them. All of which may or may not have a grain of truth to them, but for the most part wholly missed the mark.
Sure, I am generally known for telling the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth so help me God, but it doesn't mean I am delivering my sentiments in a rude and unfeeling manner. It's hard to actually tell people the truth sometimes and dangit you better be grateful that someone cares enough to tell you. Right? maybe not, but that's how I'm telling it. You know, since I do what I want anyway. Which brings me to the next point... generally I don't do what *I* want. I do what the world thinks/says/assumes I should do. If for nothing else, just for the sake of NOT causing more drama. So what if one day I want to do nothing more than move from the bed to the couch, stuff my face with enough junk food to kill Lance Armstrong and watch made for tv movies until my eyes are about to fall out of my head?! There is no shame in that. Okay, so maybe there is, but whatever. A girl's gotta do what a girl's gotta do!
And now I've lost my train of thought. Well not entirely, just derailed a little. Good thing I'm not filled with toxic waste huh? That sure would be a bummer for Kyle.
Again, I digress...
But all is lost now. My flitty little brain has moved on to all the things I plan to do for myself. And I am starting off the year right spending it with family and friends and maybe even my good buddy SoCo and the distant cousin Jello Shot. Who knows! What I do know is, there is a drawing on my desk completed by yours truly that is begging to be permanently etched into my wrist. (Sorry Grandma! I can't help myself...)
So until I come up with some more self-indulging crap to write about, stay safe, stay warm and most importantly, stay happy people. There's a new year a brewin' that is begging to be awesome.
Much love,
Your Friendly Neighborhood Crazy Woman/Granddaughter/Cheesehead
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3 comments:
First let me say, IT'S Me EFFING TIME WOMAN!
And then i will say YAY for this "For 2009, I really have only one goal. Put me first. Now don't go thinking this is an excuse for it to be open season on everyone's feelings because it isn't. It is putting myself first and my happiness first and foremost. I spend a lot of time putting myself on the back burner for the sake of others. I have every intention of still loving and caring for those that love me back, but the ones that are just here to suck the life out of me little by little, day by day... well boy are they in for a surprise." and AMEN SISTA!
Third....well there is no third. I lovers you! HAPPY NEW YEAR!
wait...it's me effing time? OHH somehow the middle of time got cut and sent me back to between it's and effing and i didn't erase the me. shut up you love me. and quit laughing...it wasn't THAT funny.
OH and now do the other one. you know what i'm talking about don't play dumb with me! that is all.
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